How Magical Realism Reflects the Queer Experience

 

Illustration by Malaika Astorga

As we continue to get sucked into sanitized versions of LGBTQ+ identities, one thing is becoming clear: I’m tired of mainstream queer media. The same sentiment could be expressed more succinctly with the words “I’m tired of mainstream media”, but it’s the queer ones that are a particular thorn in my side. The increasing sanitization of queer stories may make them more digestible for cishet audiences, but it inevitably comes at the cost of reducing the queer experience to what can be easily turned into Funko Pops and brand deals.

In the search for a more authentic experience, I—surprisingly enough—turned to a genre that isn’t necessarily known for its queer representation: magical realism. For someone with surface-level knowledge of magical realism, it might be more fitting to discuss the literary genre in its initial context: originating from Latin America in a period of significant political turmoil and using unimaginative language when describing imaginative events to convey messages of social and political critique. However, a closer look at traits unifying the works of the genre reveals parallels between the magical realist experience and the queer experience.

Magical realism employs a technique called authorial reticence, or the intentional withholding of information about the world from the audience. Authorial reticence, and the effect it has on the reader, wonderfully reflect the lack of preparedness to navigate a cishet world as a queer person. After all, don’t you—the queer person reading this—ever feel like your peers were given some kind of survival guide that got mysteriously lost in the mail in your case? Like you missed a life-altering memo?

Another point of comparison is that the underlying political aspect of magical realist works serves as a mirror for the inherently political lives of queer people. In a world where queer bodies and relationships are constantly exploited as discussion points in TV debates or potential vote-sways to garner a few votes in elections, the removal of political undertones from media can feel like a flattening of queer storylines. Even though magical realist works rarely discuss queer issues, the fundamental connection between a narrative and its underlying sociopolitical contexts offers comfort for those who feel that their lives, too, have an underlying context.

Perhaps most importantly, magical realism turns its eye on the reader; it is the relationship between the text and the audience that adds an extra layer of depth to magical realist works. Everyday life often marginalizes queer experiences and people, whether they’re characters in the story of life or an audience for cishet realities. Conversely, crafting a magical realist narrative requires thinking not only about the in-text world but also the world of those reading it: how much should the reader know about the character? How is the reader supposed to distinguish between what’s real and what’s fake – and within this world, is there even a meaningful difference?


Julio Cortazar’s “Axolotl” is a story with a relatively simple premise – it’s about a man who turns into an axolotl. The story is a classic example of a magical realist text: the real-world setting of Paris is contrasted with the fantastical events, and the reader never really finds out how the transformation happens (in the original context, the story was meant as an extended metaphor for the political situation in Argentina).

“Axolotl” brings special attention to the process of transformation in a way that may be comforting for transgender audiences, even though there is no mention of gender in the story itself. The narrator’s recount of his transformation is parallel to the process of exploring one’s gender identity: the initial fascination (“I stayed watching them for an hour and left, unable to think of anything else”); the intrinsic feeling of connection with the unknown (“They and I knew.”); the feeling of removal from one’s old self (at the end of the story, now in the aquarium alongside the axolotls, the narrator starts to refer to his human version, which still visits, in third person) and that the transition was meant to happen all along. The narrator fully embraces being an axolotl, with all of its weirdness and with full awareness that it means at least partially breaking away from what it means to be a “regular” person. Ain’t that the representation you sometimes need in place of pretty protagonists on both big and small screens, desperately attempting to convince cishet audiences that “queer people are just like you, really”?

In contrast to “Axolotl”, Chavissa Woods’ short story collection Things to Do When You’re Goth in the Country focuses more on the queer than the magical realist. Although some stories in the collection are just plain and simple literary fiction, the story which leans into magical realism the most is “A New Mohawk”, a story of a young trans man who (how very topically) one day wakes up with the Gaza Strip attached to his head. “Take the Way Home that Leads Back to Sullivan Street” is a story of a lesbian and her partner who share hallucinations (or are they hallucinations?) after doing drugs at their in-laws’ Mensa party. Almost every story in the collection features queer characters, and none of them stray away from portraying the characters as disgustingly human, with all the ugliness it requires.

Woods seems to get something that many contemporary creators of queer storylines don’t get: that delving into the peculiarities of the queer experience isn’t a bad thing, and that creating art that fits cishet ideals of “normality” shouldn’t be the goal. I think the most vivid element of TTDWYGITC is its inability to be sterilized and turned into Shein merchandise: it’s queerness you cannot get out with bleach and capital.

If you’re a queer reader, fatigued with the increasingly boring and sterilized portrayals of queer realities in media, go to a library and grab a book from the “magical realism” shelf. After all, the original rainbow flag included a stripe symbolizing magic.


Magdalena Styś is a jack of all trades and a master of putting them all into their schedule. You can check out their work here or follow them on Instagram.

Malaika Astorga is the Co-Founder & Creative Director of Also Cool. She is a Mexican-Canadian visual artist, writer, and social media strategist currently based in Montreal.


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Montreal's N10.AS Celebrates 8 Years of Community Radio Excellence

 

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N10.AS, a volunteer-powered, non-profit internet radio station, uniquely lives atop the glowing dining room of Montreal’s premier restaurant-dancefloor, Le Système. Broadcasting online and worldwide 24/7, N10.AS is home to 130 shows—featuring DJ sets of all genres, to talk radio and experimental soundscapes—programmed by, and for, creatives from its hometown and beyond. 

Photos curteosy of N10.AS

The e-station recently celebrated its 8-year anniversary, a milestone that has seen N10.AS through numerous moves and hundreds of hosts behind the mic and DJs at the booth. Behind its humble operations at 7119 St. Hubert and Web 1.0 aesthetic, N10.AS is a vital community hub embedded within Montreal’s artistic ecosystem. Through fostering an accessible space for collaborative sonic expression from diverse communities, N10.AS challenges the status quo with programming that is both hyper-local and socially conscious. Community radio stations like N10.AS are a commercial-free haven where you can toggle between local artists spinning their favourite tracks and independent syndicated shows like Democracy Now!

Also Cools hosting at N10.AS

That being said, operating a labour of love comes with real costs, both in money and energy. N10.AS has supported us, and now its hard working team is asking for our support: The station is fundraising to upgrade its well-loved broadcasting equipment.

How can you help? You can become a patron by submitting a one-time or monthly pledge to N10.AS, buy merch, or enter the station’s raffle for your chance to win exciting prizes from local vendors Pizza Bouquet, Arbutus Records, Editorial Magazine, Metatron Press, LOPEZ and Le Système on April 14th, 2024!

Celebrating the station’s 8th Birthday at Le Système - photo via Le Système Instagram

We spoke with one of N10.AS’ core team members, Jacob Colt Wynia, to learn more about the station’s rich history, future broadcasting outlook and evolving creative mandate. Get into the community radio spirit and listen to our audio interview below!

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Listen to Also Cool’s show on N10.AS every second Sunday of the month at 5PM ET!

Zoë Argiropulos-Hunter (she/her) is the Co-Founder and Managing Editor of Also Cool Mag. Aside from the mag, she is a music promoter & booker, and a radio host & DJ.


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Celebrating Black History Month 2024 in Ottawa and Montreal

 

Happy Black History Month! Whether you’re in Ottawa or Montreal, there are plenty of ways to celebrate and honour Black History Month across both of Also Cool’s respective headquarter cities. Below, find a non-exhaustive list of events spotlighting our local Black communities and uplifting the power and influence of Black history, culture and creativity. Be sure to keep up with the programmers and curators of these events to enjoy and support their endeavours all year round!


Ottawa Black History Month Roundup

The second edition of “Crépu: Our DNA” returns this coming Sunday, February 4th, at the Canadian Science and Technology Museum from 5pm-9pm.

Presented in collaboration between Hors Pair Social, The Moving Art Gallery and Ingenium, “Crépu: Our DNA” is a multidisciplinary Black hair art show, showcasing the complexity and innovation that Black folks have engineered in hair care.

Following the event’s extremely successful launch in 2023, the second edition of “Crépu: Our DNA” features artists from both Ottawa and Montreal, and offers a wide range of programming, from workshops on curly hair care to a hair-art runway.

Advance tickets are sold out! A limited number of tickets will be available at the door - arrive early!


In collaboration with the Ottawa Music Industry Coalition and Pass The Vibes, Produced By Youth presents FUBU (For Us By Us) at Club SAW on Wednesday, February 7th from 7pm-11:30pm.

Celebrating five years of Produced By Youth—a Black-led grassroots organization that delivers a unique music-making workshop program aimed at fostering a creative safe(r) space exclusively for Black youth ages 15-25—FUBU features a networking mixer, live performances, raffle prizes, games and more, for and by Black youth.

The FUBU lineup includes Produced By Youth Advanced Cycle alumni μames., Nonso, Chyme and Produced By Youth x Pass The Vibes DJs dj boatie & Mona Monet

Secure your pay-what-you-can tickets below!


Hip hop takes centre stage throughout February at the National Arts Centre eleven-day Hip Hop Theatre Festival. On now until February 10th, the inaugural event revolves around the text-based essence of hip hop. Programming includes battle rap, spoken word, staged readings, panels, concerts and virtual events “aimed at broadening our perspective on how we view and experience theatre at its core.”


On February 20th, Hors Pair Social invites you to celebrate Black History Month at the Algonquin Commons Theatre with The Ottawa Black Creatives Hub Performing Arts Showcase.

From 6:30pm-9pm, catch performances from musical artists, dancers, poets, and other multifaceted creatives representing Ottawa’s Black arts scene. The lineup includes Grey Brisson, N’nerjie, Sommer Knight, Malaïka Urbani, Chloe Bonnet, Miss Mcleod, Christjay, KingH509, Noni, Mxzy, Olivia Onuk, Carleton Afro Dance Crew AKA CADC, Jacqui Du Toit, Fitch Jean, and Kiera Meeks. 


BLKGURL Prom takes Club SAW February 24th and this year’s theme is The Elements. Organized by BLKGURL—a grassroots collective dedicated to creating space, building community and uplifting Black women and gender diverse folks—BLKGURL Prom is the ultimate celebration of Black girl/gender non-confirming magic.

There is no dress code, but get ready to strut your stuff on the dancefloor! The event is free, and donations are welcome to support BLKGURL.

Please note that this a dry event. BLKGURL Prom is a closed event specifically for Black women, girls and gender/sexually marginalized people.


Montreal Black History Month Roundup

Also Cool had the pleasure of attending the opening night of Black Theatre Workshop’s Diggers at Segal Centre for Performing Arts. On until February 17th, this brilliant co-production with Prairie Theatre Exchange is the world premiere of the story of three essential workers—grave diggers—who make the best of a bad situation as townsfolk grow increasingly distant when illness hits their town.


This Saturday, February 3rd, the second edition of Frky x Listen takes La Sotterenea from 8pm-10:30pm to celebrate Black musical heritage on the dancefloor. Spanning multiple genres, from jazz, hip hop, house, afrobeat and more, this free event brings together members of the music scene to honour Black history month and the rich tapestry of Black music and its influence.

The lineup features Mauro Pezzente, Donald D, Lexis (Music Is My Sanctuary), Dapapa, Blackgold, Sisters of Sim, Living Legends, Mathieu Grondin, Quest, Inobe, Jesse Walker, ESC, Duke Eatmon, and Supernature.


The next edition of Also Cool x Mags Drink n’ Draw is coming up on February 21st at Système! Bring your friends (or make new ones), vibe to tunes supplied by DJ JU!CE, and enjoy the best food and drink in town as you unlock your artistic side. This Drink n’ Draw will have a special colouring page for Black History Month, made in collaboration with a surprise local music group!

More details coming soon - save the date!


BLK WinterFest is fostering nothing but Black joy in the middle of winter! Organized by Hike Mtl, BLK WinterFest is a month-long happening, offering winter activities (skating, skiing, snowboarding, cross-country skiing, snowshoeing and ice climbing) every weekend for the Black community throughout the month of February.

Open to all ages and skill levels, BLK WinterFest is the perfect opportunity to gather with family and friends for a fun outdoor excursion!


From February 7th to March 10th, experience the story of American Black civil rights pioneer Claudette Colvin. Presented by the Phi Centre, Colored: The Unknown Life of Claudette Colvin, is an augmented reality installation that uses the HoloLens 2 (an augmented reality headset) to transport the viewer through Colvin’s life in segregated Alabama.

Learn more about this immersive and powerful exhibition here.


For more Black History Month programming in Ottawa, see this list compiled by Hors Pair Social and visit Black History Ottawa.

For more Black History Month programming in Montreal, visit mtl.org and Table Ronde.


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Fictional Gender Expression: Social Media Film Critique and Womanhood on Camera

 

Illustration by Sierra McLean

My friends who talk about their boyfriends are failing the Bechdel test. A girl I know stops wearing red lipstick because she believes she’s dressing for the male gaze. “The female gaze is more the way Tom Holland looks at Zendaya”, says an innocent TikTok comment. Slowly yet surely, the woman is turning into a product.

In 2023, the Bechdel test doesn’t need an introduction. Originating in Alison Bechdel’s “Dykes to Watch Out For”, and originally meant to criticize the alienation of queer women in media, the test asks the audience to consider whether the movie they’re watching has at least two female characters who have a full conversation about something other than a man. Although Bechdel herself stated that her intention wasn’t for it to become a tool for analysis, the test quickly seeped into popular culture and became the staple for discussions on the intersections between gender and media. “It doesn’t even pass the Bechdel test” is a recurring anecdote within feminist movie critiques. 

While the Bechdel test was particularly popular in casual feminist movie analysis from the 2000s to 2010s, it has slowly been fading into obscurity within the context of actual analysis and has instead become a punchline on social media. Searching for “the Bechdel test” on TikTok will most likely result in seeing two types of videos: attempts to actually analyze movies using the Bechdel test, or jokes about how getting fired by your female boss or being verbally abused by your mother all technically pass the test. Although not completely obsolete, the Bechdel test is now treated much less seriously than it was in the early 2000s.

With the Bechdel test’s tragic fall from grace, a new tool for determining a movie’s inherent feminist nature had to come into town. This time, the new it-girl of pop movie critique is the “female gaze”. The term “the male gaze”, from which the opposite “female gaze” has been coined, has been around for almost 50 years, coined by Laura Mulvey in her 1975 essay “Visual Pleasure and Narrative Cinema”; in the essay, Mulvey defines “the male gaze” as the way in which womanhood in cinema is often reduced to a spectacle for the pleasure of the male audience, rather than actually contributing to the storyline. When the term started being thrown around on TikTok, the context of film analysis became less relevant and was instead replaced with creators (mostly young women) applying the rules of the male and female gaze to their lives. It’s no longer just characters that can appeal to the male or female gaze; now the way you look, dress and act can all appeal to whatever imaginary audience you have.

Although I have thoughts about the validity of analyzing cinema through means such as the Bechdel test or the male vs. female gaze, that’s not what this piece is about. In the context of film analysis, any tool can be used efficiently and lead to interesting, productive discourse – and in a similar vein, those same tools can be reduced to their simplest interpretations and strip the work they’re meant to analyze of any nuance. What online creators seem to forget about, or not realize in the first place, is that humanity exists outside a screen, that screen being in the cinema or in your pocket.


Thanks to TikTok’s intriguing interface, in which the algorithmically set “For You” page takes the stage to the detriment of the user’s “Following” feed, anyone posting content can easily show up on anyone else’s feed. This, in comparison to other social media (at least before they all followed TikTok’s model), drastically increases the chances of a complete stranger observing a slice of your life – a few years ago, the chances of anyone outside of your following seeing a mundane post with no hashtags on your small social media account were miniscule, and now that’s just a regular Tuesday afternoon on TikTok for many. Your social media account is no longer a photo album for you and your friends to enjoy – it’s a stage in the middle of the market square, with you performing tricks, condemned to the attention of the passers-by. In other words, it’s the perfect environment to grossly misunderstand a feminist theory and turn womanhood (and livelihood) into a product.

Both the Bechdel test and the male gaze theory have gone through a sort of “Tiktokfication” – that is, they have both been watered down and applied to the context of real life, effectively stripping them from the reason they were useful in the first place. In a contemporary twist on Theatrum Mundi, the terms being used in the context of real people and their lives effectively equate the way regular people live their lives to performance. Coming-of-age under the observant lens of social media gives young people—especially young women—the sense that there is someone watching your every move, judging your every choice of dress and deciding what they think about your performance the same way they would when they’re watching a movie.

A quote often thrown around in the context of the male vs. female gaze is one by Margaret Atwood from The Robber Bride

Male fantasies, male fantasies, is everything run by male fantasies? Up on a pedestal or down on your knees, it's all a male fantasy: that you're strong enough to take what they dish out, or else too weak to do anything about it. Even pretending you aren't catering to male fantasies is a male fantasy: pretending you're unseen, pretending you have a life of your own, that you can wash your feet and comb your hair unconscious of the ever-present watcher peering through the keyhole, peering through the keyhole in your own head, if nowhere else. You are a woman with a man inside watching a woman. You are your own voyeur.” 

Atwood’s metaphor continues to be relevant even 30 years after The Robber Bride has been published; in the eyes of TikTok creators, dressing and acting in a way that would appeal to “the female gaze” is the solution to that problem. However, doesn’t any gaze, regardless of its presumed gender affiliation, turn you into a character – something to be enjoyed and consumed, rather than someone with a life that waits to be experienced?

That’s exactly where the main issue with “the gazes” is rooted. Similarly to what Atwood hinted at in The Robber Bride, the past views on how women should dress, look and live were mostly meant to appeal to patriarchal standards of “what a woman should be”. Those standards changed over time, with the housewives of the 50s and 60s turning into the hot and exciting manic pixie dream girls, with Maria von Trapp turning into Ramona Flowers; nevertheless, their existence was tied to their Captains and Scott Pilgrims and their worth was judged by how well they served their narratives.

The TikTok trendsetters understand the issue with that; however, their solution isn’t much better. The “female gaze” trend calls to subvert the patriarchal expectations of womanhood, but it doesn’t ask the [person] to stop viewing their lives through the lens of someone else’s gaze completely — it merely asks the actors on the stage of life to watch themselves from the opposite perspective. It’s not a revolutionary act of freedom from catering to fantasies; it’s simply being moved to a prettier cage.

Fortunately for influencers, it’s easier to market and sell accessories to decorate your cage than keys and a map to navigate the road outside of it, and TikTok users are already used to being sold something immediately upon entering the app. As a result, everyone is satisfied — TikTok viewers who want someone to tell them how to dress, TikTok creators who want to tell others how to dress, companies who want an easy roadmap on how to cater to young audiences. 

A switch from dressing “for the male gaze” to “for the female gaze” or analyzing whether your conversations pass the Bechdel test still equates womanhood to performance. Even if you are no longer a woman with a man inside watching a woman, you haven’t gotten rid of the watching – you’ve just gotten rid of the man.


Magdalena Styś is a jack of all trades and a master of putting them all into their schedule. You can check out their work here or follow them on Instagram.

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Building and Re-Building Community: Conversations at the Read Quebec Book Fair

 

The Read Quebec Book Fair, photo via AELAQ

On November 3rd and 4th, the 8th annual Read Quebec Book Fair transformed Concordia’s McConnell Atrium into a warmly lit, buzzing market for English-language books, magazines, and translations. The event series is organized by the Association of English-language Publishers of Quebec (AELAQ) in partnership with the Quebec Writers’ Federation (QWF).  Publishers with a stall at the book fair included Maisonneuve, Drawn and Quarterly, Metonymy Press, Vehicule Press, Concordia University Press, and many more. The book fair represented the diversity of the anglophone literary scene in Quebec, showcasing a multitude of voices, styles, and genres as well as making space for emerging writers and publishers. The attendees were not only able to peruse titles and make purchases, but also to form connections with local writers, publishers, and translators in an intimate setting. The space was alive with conversations about old favourites and new discoveries. 

In addition to the market, the book fair also offered a series of public literary events. On the first afternoon, the eight finalists for the Quebec Writers’ Federation Spoken Word Prize did live performances of their work. Nour Abi-Nakhoul from Maisonneuve, Leigh Nash from Assembly Press, and journalist Adam Leith Gollner spoke about how to “Perfect Your Pitch” for those interested in non-fiction and magazine writing. Billy Mavreas gave a workshop to children on how to create their own comic strips and write postcards to their future selves. Catherine Hernandez—Toronto-based author of Scarborough, Crosshairs, and The Story of Us—also participated in the book fair this year. She took part in a conversation with Linda M. Morra and author Eva Crocker for the live podcast recording of Getting Lit with Linda. She also attended the screening of the film adaptation of her novel Scarborough, an event co-sponsored by Image+Nation Queer Culture, Montreal’s queer film festival, and the queer reading series Violet Hour. 

It is clear that the Read Quebec Book Fair emerges from a web of collaborations and seeks to create and maintain ties within Montreal’s anglophone literary community. I had the pleasure of speaking with Rebecca West, executive director of AELAQ, as well as Catherine Hernandez. We discussed the significance of public literary festivals, the opportunities and challenges of various storytelling mediums, and issues around representation. 

West remarked that the Read Quebec Book Fair started as a holiday book fair: “The initial thinking was to offer publishers a way to connect with their readers ahead of the holiday gift-giving season, which is the biggest book-buying time of the year across the country.” However, attendees started to value the book fair for how it helps them navigate the Quebec English-language literary landscape and, accordingly, the organizers’ objectives have transformed since its inception. The timing of the book fair has also shifted further back from the holiday season, landing on what is for many a rather challenging time of year with the fall semester in full swing and the people of Montreal adjusting to the loss of daylight, colour, and warmth outside. However, it is during these periods that occasions for community building offer the most solace. “It’s still a nice opportunity to get gifts a bit earlier.” said West, “but mostly, it’s a really beautiful opportunity for publishers and authors to connect directly with their readers and have conversations with them. We do have such a nice English-language literary community in Montreal. That’s my favourite thing about the fair.” 

Linda M.. Morra and Catherine Hernandez recording Getting Lit with Linda, photo via AELAQ

The book fair also responds to the challenges faced by the local literary community. Local publishers and booksellers have a limited reach compared to larger presses and corporate distributors and are often squeezed out by the latter. Long-form cultural magazines are shuttering left and right, or otherwise struggling to survive because of limited—and, sometimes precarious—funds. The increased cost of living makes it more difficult for writers to devote time to their creative practice, let alone to engage with their audiences, and our cultural habits are also increasingly algorithmically siloed and directed away from local writing. Visibility alone is not a solution to these problems, but it is nonetheless important for maintaining the relevance of local publishing.

West also points out more specific challenges to the English-language literary community in Quebec: “There’s something to be said about maintaining and strengthening ties in the English-language literary community, especially when we’re seeing what feel like threats to the strength of the community – whether it’s tuition hikes for out-of-province students that have just been announced, or new language laws that are limiting access to services for English-language folks. Our mission, at its core, is always about promoting books but, as part of that, we’re strengthening ties within the community.”

Hernandez also foregrounded the value of having real-life encounters with writers at a time when many of our engagements with literature take place online. She suggested that online forums can, at times, encourage impulsive, rigid reviews of literary works rather than thoughtful discussions of how these texts function and connect with the wider world.  “[I love the way] that a festival allows people to be in the same space and see each other’s humanity,” she says, “It also gives me the opportunity to read the book [out loud] because there is always this oral aspect to my work that comes from having worked in theater and now in film.”

In our discussion and throughout the book fair, Hernandez gestured to what is distinctive about different kinds of storytelling—literature, theater, film—as well as how one can experiment with their boundaries. “I think a major thing you’ll see from Crosshairs onwards is that I always try to name the audience,” she tells me. “In theater, that’s really a common practice… In Crosshairs, the reader is addressed as the long-lost lover of a character named Kay. In The Story of Us, they are spoken to as Liz, the elderly client of the protagonist MG… In naming the audience, you are almost saying ‘you’re part of this journey’… It also just helps you understand why you are being told this story now. It doesn’t take the reader for granted. I love the immediacy of it. I don’t know if I’m going to use this technique in all of my books but, for me, it’s really a call back to my theater roots.” 

The Read Quebec Book Fair, photo via AELAQ

Hernandez also described adapting her novel to film as a way of revising and reimagining the text, with members of the cast and crew bringing in their own interpretations of the story. “What is so beautiful about filmmaking is that it’s not just you. You’re collaborating with a whole bunch of different energies. There were 300 people who touched this film to make it a success. That means that they are bringing their artistry into the work and bringing it to life in a way I never believed was possible.” At the same time, she describes learning to account for the financial expense of making creative decisions in film and television: “If I make a change in my book—a location change, a character change—it doesn’t cost anything. Whereas in film and television, when you make creative choices, it could cost thousands. Something I didn’t truly understand right away when I was writing the screenplay was how my decisions were going to impact the budget.” While financial limits are particularly decisive in film and television, Hernandez reminds us to examine the material conditions (money, resources, space) that enable and limit art. 

Hernandez also spoke about her reckoning with performative inclusion within literary institutions. In recent years, there has been a trend of many of these institutions using their publicly stated commitment to diversity merely as window dressing. “I don’t think people who considered themselves allies really understood that when you give QTBIPOC a space at the table, you actually have to listen to what they are saying and maybe change the DNA of your organization in a progressive direction. A lot of organizations were not willing to do that.” In particular, Hernandez takes issue with the way that racialized people who are included in the fold are implicitly and, sometimes explicitly, asked to be understated about their politics. However, she believes herself to be surrounded by writers who do not acquiesce to these demands: “I definitely am part of a beautiful, burgeoning community of QTBIPOC authors who are not afraid to be a bit more brazen with their politics and to tell undertold or untold stories of Canada. When we’re in a world where storytellers are being silenced when they speak about genocide and [advised] instead to appear neutral in situations [of injustice].” Hernandez was a crucial voice at the Read Quebec Book Fair; she sees the importance of not only celebrating the literary community but also critically (and bravely) responding to the institutional challenges encountered by storytellers. 

Oftentimes our engagement with literature tends to be solitary; we read alone at home, at a cafe, or in our offices. The Read Quebec Book Fair represents an occasion to engage with books collectively. Moreover, through talks, panels, and workshops, it offers much-needed space for reflection about reading and writing: what are the lenses through which we can understand a work of literature? How do literary works resonate with ongoing issues in our world? How can we present our work to publishers so that we can reach our audiences? How can we utilize different modes of storytelling? What is standing in the way of meaningful representation? These sorts of conversations are essential in facilitating in-depth engagements with literature, and for ensuring that our literary communities are viable and constantly evolving. 


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Also Cool Mag Turns Four!

 

Graphic by Malaika Astorga

Also Cool Mag celebrated our fourth birthday on October 29th, marking another amazing chapter for this project. Every passing year we reflect on how this passion project has expanded into all of our different communities, and how it connects us, and holds space for all kinds of different self expression. 

Minou at our Drink&Draw event at Système

This year, we welcomed Minou to our core team. Minou radiates with creative ambition: she has sparked a continuing residency at Montreal’s Système, offering free beading workshops with her at the helm. We firmly believe in creating accessible creative spaces wherever we can, which is why we teamed up with long-time Also Cool champion Mags to host free monthly Drink & Draw nights. Both of these events offer free art supplies, as well as a space for unwinding and making new friends. 

Photo by Ming Wu

Speaking of forging new relationships, this past year has been marked by a handful of special collaborations. We rang in the New Year with Palingenesis thanks to our friends at Congrego and Debaser, which saw an eclectic lineup of live acts paired with installations at All Saints Church in Ottawa. This ignited momentum for February, where we covered an inaugural Taverne Tour and co-presented Frankie Rose and Chiara Savasta at Montreal’s Casa del Popolo (thank you Mothland for always supporting us!). Later in the season, we linked up with pals at Side By Side Weekend to thaw the lulls of Ottawa Winter™ with Alpen Glow, Crisis Party, and Preloved at LIVE! On Elgin. 

The Also Cool team has been thrilled to not only program, but attend and profile high-level festivals and events. We co-presented with two of our favourite partners in our respective cities, KickDrum and Side By Side Weekend, attended our first Osheaga, and covered existing favourites Taverne Tour, POP Montreal, PIQUE, Festival de musique émergente (FME), and Psyched Fest in San Francisco. 

Also Cool tshirt collab with Garden Party

We also had the pleasure of collaborating with local clothing brand, Garden Party, on a limited run of tshirts. We’re big fans of the GP and Beamskii, the DJ behind the bunny-themed brand, and couldn’t be more stoked to have an official collab. There are still a few shirts left on the site, so make sure to get ‘em before they’re gone.

Podcast art by ohvasco

Moving into the realm of sound, our podcast Also Cool Sounds Like was well into season three. This latest chapter of the project has been incredibly redefining. Many wave-making musicians have sat behind the mic (and camera!) with our hosts Aviva and Gwen, and videographer George. The podcast has earned recognition from Apple Podcasts, Canadaland, Pod the North, and Edit Audio for its approachable yet insightful examination of the creative process amongst artists. This year’s interviewees include Gloin, Frankie Rose, NO WAVES, Magi Merlin, PACKS, OMBIIGIZI, Sasha Cay, Mags, and others to-be-revealed in the upcoming season finale. 

Our podcasts are premiered on our N10.AS radio show every second Sunday of the month at 5PM EST. Listen here, and to our second radio show on Frozen Section Radio (every second Thursday of the month at 7PM EST), to keep up with the artists and cool happenings on our radar in both AC capital cities.  

Also Cool on N10.as with Late Nite Laundry

The publication end of Also Cool equally traversed new frontiers in 2023. The writings and musings from contributors Aishwarya Singh, Valerie Boucher, Laura Mota, Uma Nardone, Marie Marchandise and Vero Denis were introduced to the Also Cool universe, and we look forward to spotlighting them (and hopefully others!) going forward. 

Our podcast team interviewing the moths at Mothland

We’re already starting to make major moves heading into year five of Also Cool. This past week, we entered the eve of our birthday in true AC fashion with a Halloween dance & costume party at Lounge 164 with DJs Jas Nasty, digital polyglot and Destiny. Next on the docket: M For Montreal. Between zipping around Montreal covering shows left, right and centre, we’re partnering with the festival again this year as an official media sponsor. We can’t say much right now, but we can confirm that you’ll be hearing from some major artists on N10.AS and our podcast…  

We also had the honour of making Cult MTL’s Top Magazines list for the fourth year in a row, this time coming in second place. Our team is constantly amazed that we’ve made the list (our group chat screams every time we get the notification). 

Overall we’ve had an absolutely killer year, and are so grateful that we have a community who cares about supporting indie creatives locally and around the world. It’s hard for us to grasp that our volunteer-run project has been running this long, but here we are, just as thrilled about indie arts projects as we’ve ever been.

Malaika being DJ Also Cool at Système

If you’re looking to get involved with Also Cool, don’t be shy to shoot us a DM or an email (alsocoolmagazine@gmail.com). This project serves as a platform to allow creatives to get their work out there, and we’re always happy to help you grow.

Until we see you next time on the Internet, catch us at one of our IRL events in Montreal (see the schedule below).

Beading Night at Système - Nov 22nd

Drink & Draw at Système (with Mags, & DJs Robocat & Flleur) - Nov 8th

P.S. Also Cool rebrand is coming soon… keep an eye out on socials for our new look created by local design wiz Heather Lynn.


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"Creating Space": A Conversation with Author Josie Teed

 

Josie Teed by Lauren Cozens

Josie Teed’s debut memoir British Columbiana, out now through Dundurn Press, explores a period of transition. After completing back-to-back degrees — a bachelor’s in art history and cultural studies at McGill and a master’s in archeology at the University of York  ​​— Teed accepts a job in the remote heritage town of Barkerville.  Located in the Cariboo region of British Columbia, Barkerville showcases the nineteenth-century gold rush which led to the industrialization of the province. Teed works as an archivist and later as a heritage interpreter — that is, an actor who portrays significant figures from this era. Barkerville and the adjacent village of Wells, where Teed takes up residence, are composed of a diverse array of people ​​— some of whom are settled there for good, and others who are just passing through. 

People tend to not feel very present during transitional phases like the one that Teed undergoes in this memoir. However, Teed shows that transitions are often times of great experimentation, in which we parse through our desires and discard those that no longer serve us. I meet up with Teed on a mild spring evening to discuss the pursuit of belonging, the instability of friendships, the relationship between history and storytelling, and the complications of the memoir form. 

We begin our conversation by talking about what motivated her decision to move to such a small, insular community after completing her master’s degree. Teed describes how she felt worn out by the pace of life in Montreal, where she did her undergrad, and was overwhelmed by having to encounter the same people every single day. After this period of her life, Teed really “just wanted to create space,” which is why she chose a school in York as opposed to a bigger city like London. 

At the same time, Teed’s move to Wells was not so much an intentional decision as it was a leap of faith. “After I was done with York, I really had no one trying to get me to stay anywhere,” says Teed, “so I applied to a bunch of places through the Young Canada Works program. The only job offer that I had was from Barkerville. They were the only people who were saying, ‘you should come here.’ I also think that, on some unconscious level, I believed that it was important for me to go somewhere weird just to be able to say later in life that I had been there. This idea is something I’ve definitely moved away from as I’ve gotten older.” In this memoir, Teed seems to oscillate between two desires one to simplify her life and the other to revitalize it.

British Columbiana revolves around Teed’s pursuit to find community in Wells where many people have politics which depart from her own. “In a university social justice space like the one I found myself in at McGill, there was this expectation that every interaction you have will be informed by your politics and that disagreements were meant to be approached in a confrontational way,” Teed explains, ‘but I learned very quickly that this would not really work if I wanted to have a comfortable life in a small community where people don’t always think so consciously about their politics. So the only thing I could do while I was there was lead by example and engage in gentle conversation when issues arose. I don’t know if that is how I would deal with the same kinds of situations now, or if it would even be ethical to do so.” 

However, we also see that many of the people Teed connects with during this time prove to be inconsistent — and ultimately surprising — with their values. For instance, her friend Logan, who holds frustrating, retrograde ideas about gender roles, offers Teed valuable reassurance as she navigates her relationships with men. Meanwhile, Bobby, someone who Teed connects with on the basis of their shared political beliefs, cultural tastes, and educational background, becomes oblivious and — at times — unsympathetic towards Teed’s distress. “Logan was the greatest friend. She cared about me in a really active way that I hadn’t experienced in a long time,” Teed tells me. “But I felt so challenged by the differences in our beliefs and ways of conducting ourselves. Bobby and I felt relatively aligned, but she wasn’t available to offer me care  — but maybe this is okay because that’s not what she wanted ultimately.”

British Columbiana by Josie Teed

The memoir also dissects Teed’s fraught relationship with men during this period.  “I think living in Wells was the first time when I really felt like an object of desire in a continuous way,” says Teed. While Teed sometimes longs for the intimacy she witnesses between couples, she also seems to struggle when finding herself to be the recipient of romantic attention. She intermittently sets the intention of only cultivating friendships with men. She says to me: “When I was young, I think there was a big intimidation factor that kept me from being friends with men. I couldn’t help feeling that they were a cut above me. So I really wanted to lift the veil of mystification by actually spending time with men, but a lot of my experiences with men that I wrote about are really horrible! I just kept having these encounters where they really demonstrated a lack of character — at least in how they interact with women.” 

I propose to Teed that perhaps men have a tendency to pigeon-hole women as sexual conquests or, if they do not see them that way, to display an almost cruel level of inattention. “Now I’m much more critical of them,” responds Teed, “but I don’t want to see people as incapable of showing me kindness. I also want to believe in people’s capacity to grow.” 

While many millennial memoirs are rooted in the author’s interiority, British Columbiana conveys a distinctive sense of place. Teed represents not only the rugged geography of the region but also the way in which heritage sites like Barkerville function. In our interview, she notes that the town is “...owned by the government and perpetuates the state’s narrative of Canadian history.” 

“A lot of people who worked there had a very different agenda from myself,” she remarks. “Barkerville was originally a mining town and they basically destroyed the area to build it. Something that I felt conflicted about was the minimization of this environmental destruction — the interpretation never really tapped into that stuff. It is also just a reality that a lot of funds are funneled into the upkeep of the heritage site and very few resources are left for anything else. I will say, however, that the summer I was working there was the first summer that they had Indigenous interpretation, and it was really interesting to witness the negotiations between the longstanding interpreters and the new Indigenous interpreters. I have my criticisms, but I also feel like Barkerville and its workers need support.” 

Teed’s time at Barkerville ultimately challenges her passion for history, prompting her to realize that she is much more interested in how history is narrativized: “I really loved history, but sometimes you love a discipline, you enter it, and then you’re just there. With some space from academic work and research, I’ve realized that I’m much more of a storyteller.”

The memoir form tends to receive criticism for flattening out the people surrounding the speaker. Likewise, Teed felt the ethical complications of writing about real people. “In the beginning, I felt super guilty about writing this story. But one thing I tried to do was leave a lot of space for the audience to have their own judgements. I also tried to balance things out by truly exposing myself.” It is true that Teed is just as transparent about her own emotional hang-ups as she is about others’ and foregrounds the impact they have on her relationships. 

This memoir also creates some of this ambiguity by representing the dialogue between Teed and her therapist Barb. Barb helps her approach problems from different angles but also brings a lot of texture to the narrative. “I think that the therapy sessions help create some distance from my initial impressions of some of my experiences,” Teed notes. “Through Barb’s interventions, these sessions function to prevent the reader from seeing my perspective as so definite. And I think they definitely soften some of my interactions.” 

A recurring feeling that Teed experiences throughout the memoir is the sense that she is on the outside of other people’s stories: that life is happening to them and not to herself. As a result, Teed often finds herself wondering what kind of narrative her experiences will amount to — or fall short of. This can be a dissociative experience which increases the stakes of every moment and, I think, cuts you off from your desires. However, writing this memoir allowed Teed to revisit her desires from this time in her life and to feel “...less ashamed for having them in the first place.” 

“I made a lot of decisions based on the kind of person I thought I was,” she states, “and a lot of my time at Wells was marked by thinking things and not expressing them. I realized writing the book that there are things I could have gotten if I asked for them. Expressing yourself is actually healthy and often yields results.” 


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For Pleasure: An Essay

 

Illustration by Malaika Astorga

« Pâtes ou poulet? »

« Pâtes, s'il vous plaît. »

The stewardess rapidly picked a combination of little containers and handed over the grey tray. While I waited for the moment when I could take off my mask, I analyzed the food and its disposable packagings: pasta in the aluminum cuboid, a transparent plastic pot with indistinguishable veggies, plastic cutlery, tiny paper packs of salt and pepper, plastically -contained vinegar, a chewy piece of bread, a butter stick, hand wipes, napkins, cookies. I opened the pasta container to find overcooked red sauce. There is something about the aesthetics of airplane food that makes it more believable that we're travelling amongst clouds at hundreds of kilometres per hour.

I was feeling heavy. I had just finished the book O Peso do Pássaro Morto by Aline Bei. The romance asks the question, "How much loss fits in a woman's life?" Chapter by chapter, new layers of pain were revealed for the character. Each chapter recounts a year of life, of abuse, of an obligation of performance, of loneliness. It was the mix of the plane's constant buzz and my rage against how women are expected to endure struggles that made me look at the butter stick and desire its melting decadence to moisten the stale pasta. When this thought first crossed my mind, I smiled. What if my partner sees that? Health, other than the events of disease, is a performance. Sitting in the middle chair of the corridor line, I imagine my neighbours watching me dissolve the cholesterol stick into my meal.

Tired of other people's expectations of her, Cléo from Agnes Varda's Cléo de 5 a 7 takes control of her own narrative, proclaiming: "Damn Tuesday! I'll do as I like." She dresses in a stupid winter hat and goes for a summer walk. Bei's protagonist never told off the legislators who postulated how she should live her life. She embodied silence, and silently she died, choked on her own puke.

Thinking of both women, I decided I'd prefer wearing more stupid winter hats.

I first took one-quarter of the mini butter stick. The saltiness and fat of the butter smoothened the texture of the tomato sauce. I checked my surroundings and melted the rest of the butter into my aluminum container. By the end of the meal, I was overcome by the adrenaline of rebelling against public eating norms. I was victorious over shame. I giggled to myself. It was probably confirmation bias, but instantaneously my face felt greasier. There was a silly intensity of joy. A joy that is based on not giving in to the Panopticon. I proposed to myself an experiment. I wanted to try the opposite of Bei's character. I decided to go on a one-month journey searching for the answer to “How much pleasure fits in a woman's life?”


We arrived from the airport, dropped my luggage off at my house, did groceries, and started cooking vegan burgers. My partner's roommates arrived all together. One of them had said they would welcome us with cake and beer. Instead, they came in time for my partner to cook them dinner. I listened to their discussion of domestic issues in French. I questioned if I was already failing in the search for pleasure. Exhausted from the jet lag, we went to bed. Before the light was turned off, I looked at my partner and said I wouldn't go on the canoeing trip with his friends anymore. He opened his eyes wide and asked why.

I had explained the idea of a hedonistic month earlier when the airplane landed. So I replied, “I don't think I will have fun.”

In the dim room, I contained my smile. For once, I didn't re-explain that my French is not agile enough to participate in conversations, and his friends—although bilingual Montrealers—weren't quite welcoming to anglophones. Anglophone… as if Portuguese wasn't my first language, as if English always came to me smoothly. For all I didn't say, I allowed the smile to cover my face in its grease.

My partner was clearly disappointed with me for backing off less than a week before the trip. I hardly ever cancel plans with anyone. I felt guilty, but then he asked if this pleasure thing was serious. Yes, it is! I felt empowered by my research. I was ready to focus on making my own plans.


I imagine some activities as reserved for my elderly self. Having chickens, trail running, naked live modelling. In search of stuffing my life with as much pleasure as possible, I took inspiration from the bucket list I have prepared for when I'm very wrinkled. A big part of the list involved me being fitter, wiser or the owner of a backward, but being bare is ageless. I proceeded to make the arrangements for naked live modelling. I messaged a friend of a friend who organized the event. I rehearsed poses and balancing. I wanted the pleasure of feeling that the body is no other than a still-life composition.

On a Wednesday, looking at the evening lights of Place des Arts, I felt like Dorothée. In Varda's movie, Cléo asks if Dorothée didn't feel too exposed when live modelling. Dorothée replied: “Nonsense! My body makes me happy, not proud. They're looking at more than just me. A shape, an idea. It's as if I wasn't there."

Standing. Sitting. Laying. My body received attention but without being a target. For once, it was only marked by its stillness.

I maximized pleasure whenever possible while maintaining my functional adult duties. I said more NOs in that week-and-a-half than I had done in the past couple of months. I was overjoyed by committing to finishing my poetry manuscript. And when I wasn't writing, I spent time with my beloved community. I was unaware at the time, but I practiced part of Epicurus’ ethics: the priority of friendships. I searched for ataraxia, the lack of suffering and the feeling of calm and enjoyment. I asked myself constantly: “Will this bring me joy?”

I only saw my partner twice or thrice in the first two weeks, and he wasn't ever quite spiritually present. Once I stopped going to his friends' events just because I wanted to see him, we hardly ever saw each other. And he had always been too busy to spend time with my friends.

After a weekend with friends, foraging mushrooms, dancing and meeting new people, I missed him. On Monday morning, I proposed dinner at 7:30 PM at my place. He agreed, until at 4 PM when he texted me: "Actually, I think I am gonna go climb. But see you around 9."

I read the message, defeated. There was the same amount of disconnection with him as all the connection I felt with my friends. Earlier on that day, in therapy, I asked: “How do I know when it is a hard phase, and when it is over?” It had never quite been an easy relationship, but the struggles had solidified in the past two months. Instead of replying, my therapist exchanged questions. "Did you find the answer?" I am always afraid that I know too well what my therapist wants to say when she doesn't reply directly.

Still holding my phone after reading the text, I started crying on the sofa. My roommate came to check what was happening. “It needs to be over today,” I told her, and she knew exactly what I was referring to.

I cleaned the tears from my face. “I'm tired of being sad about this. I'm gonna go on a run.” Angry, I left the apartment. I mentally screamed at myself that I had let this go on for too long, that I had tried, but that love doesn't work by itself.

It was a ridiculous idea to run while my breathing system was busy with hiccups. I sat down. Angry. Crying. No endorphins were created.

I should be focusing on my pleasure, goddamn it!


He arrived at my place at 8:40 PM. I was slightly high from a friend's joint. He asked about my weekend, and I described the events, clearly overwhelmed by joy.

"How about me? Where am I in your amazing life?"

Yeah, you are never really around in these moments.” The words left my mouth easily. The anxiety that this topic had always brought me was brushed away by the weed.

"What should we do about it?"

I knew he expected me to ask him to be there. But I felt so neglected asking, it would be naïve to ask for presence. I was tired, and my head was clear. “I think we should break up.”

He stopped for a couple of seconds, realizing I was serious. In the next hour, I calmly explained my reasons: I didn't want to feel like I was the only one trying, I felt invisible, like his desires were always bigger than mine. I wanted someone that wanted to be in my life. Actively. 

He said he loved me. He said it made sense. He said he felt like shit while climbing. He said it was true that he took me for granted. He approached me for a hug.

In my head, I narrated the event: This is our last hug. Now, we'll never have sex, we'll never wake up together, and we'll never be partners again. The hug ended.

"So, how do we fix this?"


I started falling behind on pleasure. Academically, I felt drowned. After spending September doing the bare minimum and spending most of my time finishing the manuscript, I was burned out. Months before, I had decided to engage in the Honours program. I had enrolled in classes that I would have never taken if I had seriously considered the enjoyment factor. I thought of it as a pain necessary for the pleasure of a future self. 

Every week I was assigned to read English texts from the Renaissance and the 18th century. I had always avoided European period literature courses because their title describes all the readings well: stories of white men for white men. That is required if you want to be "honoured." Complaining about the required courses was a useless complaint summarized by a good friend: "Well, Laura, it was you who decided to do gringo studies. Hold the bomb."

Trying, or in a Brazilian Portuguese direct translation: "holding the bomb," felt contrary to my pleasure search. I found myself incapable of prioritizing my own present pleasure. The difficulty wasn't gendered. Joy was withheld by my distaste for what I had decided to take in university and the complexities of trying to discover how to make love work. I tried choosing pleasure, failed, and found myself miserable by not guaranteeing a minimal level of hedonism.


My pleasure notes became a food diary. While I felt emotionally exhausted, I indulged in every possibility of savouring delight. Natural wine, double chocolate ice cream, Brazilian coffee. On September 30th, I wrote: A night of decadence with new friends. Asking for a shameless amount of dessert to take home. The capability to not worry about how my request is perceived by others.

Good meals create space for other pleasures. It was the first time my partner and I explored social occasions that were new for both of us simultaneously. Until then, "new" was always one-sided. COVID couples and their assigned bubbles! In our new friendship with C., we found mid-ways. She was French; knowledgeable about wine like him, full of emotions and with a musical taste like mine. 

We took the bus back home, giggling at the lovely night. Holding my container with five huge slices of vegan tiramisu, I discovered a new capability of our relationship: to build together in the world.


The next day, my partner and I shared the experience of a horrible hangover.

"We shouldn't have drank five bottles of wine."

He had forgotten the existence of the last bottle, a type of sweet apple wine.

I went home. Sick, I realized that the pleasure experiment was supposed to end on that day. I felt defeated. The pleasure was unattainable amidst the anxiety I felt for half of the experiment. I refused the conclusion that my complete pleasure was short-lived, a two-week enjoyment followed by the struggle with reality for the rest of the month. I extended the experiment for a month.

At this point, I pressured myself into finding ways to feel pleasure. My university time was filled with imposter syndrome and anxiety, and to balance, I would go hard on the weekends. A party wasn't a party anymore. It was a way not to fail at pleasure.

My search started as a refusal to believe that there is always more space for pain in a woman's life. I wanted to explore how women tend to compromise more than men. And in part, the instinct of thinking about the lack of pleasure as gendered was fruitful. By refusing to push aside my priorities, my relationship improved and found new ways of being. Yet, as for the rest of my life, the difficulties were based on what I projected as expected of me and the things my self-critic identified as failures.

For the second month, I needed to do better, and YouTube had lots of theories on how to achieve "better." I didn't fall into a pyramid scheme by trendy coaches. Instead, I went on a rabbit hole of Epicurean hedonism. Focus on friends, no romantic relationships, no decadent eating, and no big ambitions. Clearly, I had been doing it all wrong. For the philosopher that inspired the first hippie communes, less is more; just go live in the mountains with some friends, reading the most and working as little as possible. Entirely unfeasible, in my opinion. If I had followed Epicurus, I would have dropped out, broken up and not eaten five slices of vegan tiramisu.


I wasn't searching for symmetry, but I found the closure of the experiment in a book.

There are a dozen and a half marks in my copy of Made-Up by Daphné B. Most of them highlight exciting ways of thinking about make-up and capitalism. Close to the end, B. remembers Anne Carson's vision of desire: the movement to pick the fruit on the highest branch of a tree. The book then proposes a new question: "Why not write biographies from the point of view of what a person desired, rather than what they achieved?" I marked on the page a huge arrow and wrote: "EXERCISE IT!!!"

Epicurus was wrong. A big part of pleasure is ambition. And it is not about the lack of pain, it is the will to search for joy even when a person is exhausted and defeated. Through the mix of Carson and B.'s thoughts, the answer to “How much pleasure fits in a woman's life?” is always as many times as I go up the ladder to reach for the furthest fruit.

My “stupid winter hat” is a run while I am sobbing, and hangovers of wonderful nights. Pleasure is searching.


Laura Mota is a Brazilian writer, portrait photographer, and shameless experimentalist in other mediums based in Tiohtiá:ke/Montreal. Her poetry has been published by PRISM International, carte blanche, High Shelf, and elsewhere. Laura's creative nonfiction was included in the issue "Generations" of Held Magazine.

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Also Cool Mag Turns Three!

 

Today marks our third solar return: Happy Birthday, Also Cool! Thank you for celebrating what has been our busiest and most gratifying year to-date; leading our team confidently into the next. We’re reflecting on all the opportunities and growth we’ve encountered this year, as a project and as people. We are immensely grateful for our supportive community, who remains at our side through it all. Though we’ve taken great strides in legitimizing our platform, our hearts will forever skip a beat when we meet you IRL and you express your admiration for what we do. Seriously, it means the world knowing that long video calls, the seemingly endless inbox overflow and missing our long-distance team while operating in two cities amounts to work that resonates. 

Along with making Cult MTL’s Top 5 Magazines list for the third year in a row (thank you to everyone who voted for us, it’s an honour!), we’ve shared accomplishments and experiences that reinforce what comes of believing in ourselves and the creatives we strive to uplift.

Since this time last year, we’ve forged new relationships and, in turn, sparked exciting collaborations. We’ve expanded our hive, working alongside talented videographers, podcasters, photographers, as well as more writers and artists of various disciplines. Kicking-off with our holiday vendor market, we saw over 20 makers, DJs and 200+ visitors pile into a modest studio space and transform it into a buzzing hub. From there, Holly joined our core team and brought us down the rabbit hole of independent theatre production. We also launched the second season of our podcast, Also Cool Sounds Like, where hosts Aviva and Gwen intimately profile innovators in Montreal’s music scene.  

On the editorial front, we introduced a seasonal Book Review Roundup column by author Alanna Why, explored the cultural significance of balaclavas with textile enthusiast Alison Margaret B. Moule, presented Michayla Grbich’s visual history of Fleetwood Mac, dove into the minds of comedian Cara Connors, designer, theatre-maker and director Sophie El Assaad and much, much more!

Though we’ve maintained this ambitious project as a labour of love, there are real operational costs that come with running a publication, event series, radio show, podcast and more. We decided to revamp our Patreon as one strategy to keep ourselves afloat while getting crafty with our content creation.

As usual, we found ourselves covering tons of music, which inspired our Playlist Refresh series. Speaking of music, we built our website’s Listen section to house our radio show archives from N10.AS and FSR, along with our podcast episodes. 

With the return of live programming, we’ve jumped back into our favourite Montreal venues to host several shows, including: Oddysseys, Last Waltzon, Glambat & Laura Krieg at Bar le Ritz; a disco night at le Système with Sperdakos, Transpacific Express and oren.wav; Shadow Show, Debate Club and Lola 1:2 at Casa del Popolo with our friends from Analogue Addiction, and, most recently; a dance party with Mollygum, JU!CE and digitalpolyglot at Bar le Ritz. 

To round off this year, we’ve been keeping ourselves busy with the bustling festival season, traveling to Rouyn-Noranda for FME and this year’s POP Montreal.

Looking ahead, what’s next for Also Cool? Well, we can’t get enough of programming live events, so expect more of that in both Montreal and Ottawa. Without spoiling too much… We can say another podcast season is underway (possibly with a multi-media addition!), our online presence is moving onto Discord and we’ve got a handful of essay ideas on the brain that we’re hoping to unveil in-between every newsletter, meme dump and TikTok video.

In closing, thank you all for making dreams come true. You rock, don’t ever change. Happy Birthday to everyone a part of the Also Cool universe!


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