D.Blavatsky’s New Single “FUK” Provides a Jaw-Clenching and Purifying Experience

 

D.Blavatsky by Feng Ish

Raw, tormenting, and cathartic – just some of the terms one might use when describing Montreal-based DJ, producer, and artist D.Blavatsky’s newest release “FUK.” This single emerges as part of their forthcoming album YOUR CHOICE, which will be released on November 11. Its inception stems from the symbiosis of D’s experience with the Calgary punk scene in their teen years, their active role in the Montreal electronic music scene, and the acute solitary reality of the pandemic years spent in their parents’ basement recording music.

From the fragmentary nature of the music video to the album’s themes of longing and desire, my conversation with D last week provides a glimpse of their complex artistic identity. 

From a Calgary goth-punk band vocalist-drum-machinist to an established Montreal DJ

D’s musical origins are rooted in the Calgary noise-punk scene, which they became part of during their teenage years. They explained that the “...big shifts [happened] when [they] started hosting a show at CJSW,” a local college radio station. From there, their musical interest intensified, and began shifting away from punk, noise, and instrumental productions to more electronic ones.

Another memorable moment stems from when they were 19 and formed a band, Torture Team, with three of their best friends. Torture Team was a goth-punk band, and D played the drum machine and served as the vocalist. They released one self-titled tape. As they spoke about it, D’s eyes were twinkling: “I really, really recommend that everyone is in a band at least once in their life,” they explained. “That was a really special time in my life. I look back on it with a lot of love and gratitude.”

A year later, they would arrive in Montreal with two of their bandmates, a move that would mark a turning point in their artistic and musical career.

D.Blavatsky by Feng Ish

“It was once I created the single “FUK” that I realized everything I had created previously was completely beside the point of what I was trying to do. And I scrapped that entire album.”

D began writing and creating the single “FUK” about three years ago. At that point, they had completed a draft of the whole album, composed of 15 pieces, which they discarded when they finalized the single that changed their vision of the album as a whole. The song, which was “mostly just a mistake,” as they explained, led to profound revelations.  “[I realized] that this is what I’m trying to communicate…I just felt very close to the language I [was] trying to create.”

“But this track really changed everything for me, because so much of this album was a learning curve of me just learning how to use digital production tools.”

This track was a turning point in D’s creative process in making the album. “I just felt inspired in a different way,” they explained. Throughout the album creation process, they began to move away from hardware production to digital, Ableton production. Their intentions also shifted: in the first version of the album, they said they felt that they were catering to some kind of audience or in a way they “had to,” so that it might appear more palatable.

But in creating “FUK,” they ruptured these mental standards. “[It] was a very pivotal moment, because it really showed me that it’s like, ‘okay, you can communicate.’” Going further, they explained that, as an artist, it is generally expected that you are “...reflecting on what perspective [you are] trying to communicate," or asking yourself why you are unique. Yet this kind of thinking doesn’t fit with their artistic process or experience. “This idea of creating a timeless work of art… I never cared about that. If my work doesn't necessarily age well within the broader cultural landscape, that's beside the point for me. I'm just trying to communicate something somehow.”

“Yeah, and “FUK” really just was like, holy shit. ‘I can do it.’ I think it was just really reaffirming…this track just embodies everything…I have something that I want to say and express.”

The creation is representative of a particular time – much of it was developed during the pandemic. The single–and, more broadly speaking, the album–seek to illustrate the complexity of desire, longing, and vulnerability within capitalist structures. On a more personal level, the works represented an exploration of a certain vulnerability they previously struggled to express.

Over a period of two years, D barely saw anyone – they said it was about eight months after they had burrowed themselves in their parents’ basement that they saw someone outside for the first time. And yet, this period of solitude was also a transformative moment for them: “The pandemic and this album was very much a metamorphosis for me, who I was when I made it.”

“[YOUR CHOICE is] about longing,  it's about desires in the most primal sense, like sexual desire, physical desire […] I'm getting my head nailed into the wall.”

D.Blavatsky by Feng Ish

Vocals, digital music, and a stream of consciousness

When listening to “FUK,” one element that grasps the listener are the vocals. Blending into the digital components of the song, one feels drawn into the destabilizing and intimately vulnerable mood that the vocals embellish. When I was preparing my interview questions, one of the things I was curious about was the intentions behind incorporating vocals, something which, unlike other genres, is not so common in experimental electronic music.

To begin, there is the process of creating the very content of the vocals. “FUK,” along with other songs on the album, often involves deciphering gibberish – quite literally. D explained to me that what they often do, including for this single, is “...create scratch vocals where [they] play around with cadence and syllables and tempo” of a digital production. “[I] just say random gibberish. And then I record that and then try to decipher the gibberish itself.”

When creating the song in their parents’ basement, they could never sing the vocals as loudly as would be featured in the final version. The final recording ended up happening in the studio of their good friend Keïta Saint, a producer and voice engineer, living in NDG. In a single, last-minute take before the curfew of noise complaints, the vocals were recorded: describing the moment of the recording, they explained that “...you could feel the static in the room.” D offered to do another take, but “...Keïta was just like ‘no, this is fucking it, you will never get a better take.’”

The music video accompanying “FUK” has its own story. D’s vision of the video was first situated in a cave: running through a cave, feeling claustrophobic, with a light constantly out of reach. Yet as they needed to adapt to the environment they were in, director Axel Zavala helped create a video that translated D’s vision with the single.

The creation itself went by fast. Axel, who had been working on other projects, connected with D right before they headed back to Montreal. In just two days, they went into the woods in the night, armed with a GoPro and camcorder. With ten hours of footage, they were able to create a visual embodiment of the disorienting and stimulating nature of the piece.

Montreal, the rave scene, and moving forward

Throughout our conversation, it was clear that the Montreal electronic music scene continues to significantly influence D’s art – both as a producer and DJ. Being a raver has been a consistent and essential part of who they are. “[Raving] has pretty much been my life for the last five years… it is the primary way that I develop social relationships with people, and that I maintain the social relationships I have… [it’s] a sense of connection and expression.”

Once D arrived in Montreal and became involved with the collective Cyberia, something of a community became evident to them. Whereas a mix of social anxiety and dysphoria had made their teen years unstable and difficult, the engagement they have found in Montreal’s rave scene has been a way to come to appreciate and validate themself. “I learned how to celebrate my body. And I learned all of the beautiful things that my body could do for me and how to express [myself] and be present. I think that was [about] being present in my body in a positive way, in a way of celebration.”

YOUR CHOICE by D.Blavatsky

Moving forward, they look forward to continuing as a DJ, producer, and organizer in the Montreal electronic music scene. After living through the metamorphosis of the pandemic as well as visiting some Europe’s techno hotspots, D explained that they came to understand that Montreal has something special that they hadn’t seen elsewhere. “I think one of the biggest faults of our creative realms here is just how much people take it for granted.”

This upcoming album release is far from being their only project in the works. In just one week, they are hosting RIP VAULT for Halloween weekend, which will feature a myriad of local DJs. After releasing YOUR CHOICE on November 11, they hope to get working on the next one right away, which would ideally be released by next summer. 

Although the Montreal electronic music scene was deeply rocked by the pandemic, it is coming out of it in new and unpredictable ways – and D.Blavatsky is sure to have a role in the way it will transform itself. Whether in terms of the music they release or the infamous raves they organize, their impact on the community is here to stay.


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VAULT Unlocked: How Montreal Raving Builds Community

 
Visual by Malaika Astorga

Visual by Malaika Astorga

From the organizers of the infamous tunnel rave that entranced Montreal this past summer, VAULT: Unlocked brings you almost 24 hours of pure rave bliss and community events. NON/BEING is the collective behind some of the best underground raves in the city. Over the past few years, they’ve brought the community together -  from their early days at Barbossa (FKA Blizzarts), to the depths of an abandoned tunnel in Griffintown. 

Tickets are selling fast, be sure to pre-order here to avoid the increased ticket price at midnight. The daytime events are free, and open to the public.

VAULT: Unlocked is a celebration of the collective’s forthcoming compilation album Certified Reality, which features international artists such as Murder Pact (NY, USA), Tati Au Miel (Montreal, Canada), Jaclyn Kendall (CA, USA), Minimal Violence (Germany), and many others.  The festival itself is centered around sharing knowledge and resources, and bringing various scenes, practices, and communities together. The event experiments with the relationships and sentiments shared on the dancefloor, but this time recontextualized in daytime events and community-oriented activities. 

VAULT events are known for their excellent rave-invite websites, all created by Remote Access. You can catch their radio show “Digital Hell” on N10.as Radio every fourth Wednesday of the month at 5pm EST.

Also Cool Mag is proud to co-present the community panels portion of the festival, where we will have a facilitated open discussion on Montreal’s various creative scenes, and how we create, support, and sustain the communities' efforts. The panel discussions will be led by community leaders and creative organizers from different academic, social, and experiential backgrounds, bringing together people and perspectives from many different parts of Montreal's cultural foundation.

Read our interview below with NON/BEING co-founder, and VAULT: Unlocked coordinator Diana Baescu a.k.a. D. BLAVATSKY.

Also Cool: Who is Non/Being? 

Diana for NON/BEING: NON/BEING IS THE MURKY SLIME THAT COVERS A DANCE FLOOR AFTER A RAVE. We are Diana Baescu [who is speaking in this interview], Simon Rock, and Heather Mitchell at its current core - but we are more importantly a research studio built by the sentiments and moments we share in warehouse rave basements and late night chat rooms.    

AC: How did the idea for the Vault: Unlocked festival come about - what was your vision?

Diana: The VAULT: Unlocked festival all came together in about a month - but it has also been something we have been working towards for many, many years. Our vision is all of us hanging out in a big warehouse sharing time, knowledge, and resources. Maybe eating some snacks, or dancing...but mainly just being together in celebration, with ourselves, and with one another. 

AC: The festival is an opportunity for exploring the meaning of community and the various interconnections that exist within it - what is the significance of collaboration between various 'scenes'. How can Montreal's creative community benefit in particular?

D: Montreal has always been a very fragmented city. Based on a very clear separation between Francophone and Anglophone culture/communication, there is a type of transience present with how people interact with this city that makes it difficult to establish long term creative infrastructure. Collaboration is the most important thing. Although our different scenes might nurture varying aesthetics and sonic preferences, the lack of communication and resource sharing happening across even just the different rave communities within Montreal is really limiting our abilities to set up secure community roots. It shouldn't be this difficult to find spaces to throw events and work out of, nor this tough to seek out knowledge and advice from older, more experienced community developers. 

The difficulty and conflicts that each new generation of creatives faces in Montreal is ultimately based on how impermanent living in this city feels. People living here are constantly looking at places like Berlin and New York as cultural focal points to raving and other forms of art organization, but the reasons why people can do the things they are doing there now is because they have generations of infrastructure to tap into for resources, knowledge, and support. The point of collaboration is to come together and share what we have/what we know, and although dancefloors and rave spaces might be our current focal points for these community organizational practices, collaboration will only enrich our lives as creatives and individuals. 

I think that it is pretty clear at this point in time that institutions in power are not concerned with our states of being. They are not here to protect or nurture our interests or basic needs of living, and although at a younger and more naive point in my life I may have been inspired to try to ‘change the system’, at this point I am only concerned with establishing alternative support networks for the ones that continue to fail us. 

Raves are important, but this isn't just about raves. It is about using raves as spaces for celebration that expand to other aspects of our social livelihoods. This festival is a small contribution to our deeper social reflections on how we can support and flourish with one another, in a world that feels like it is falling apart - we will only continue to fail at building broader long-term community infrastructure, if we do not learn the best ways to collaborate and live with/alongside one another.     

N10.AS is an online community radio, who will be co-presenting the daytime market portion of the festival

N10.AS is an online community radio, who will be co-presenting the daytime market portion of the festival

AC: What events have you previously organized and how have those experiences fed into putting together the festival? 

D: Everyone in the NON/BEING and festival crew has organized a wide range of events. Vault itself has been running for two years, and has been most deeply impacted by the abandoned tunnel rave we threw over the summer. Completely changing our personal perspectives on our capacities as organizers, and really slamming down on some important aspects of illegal event throwing, the abandoned tunnel rave has informed us as both ravers and community members in really special ways. 

Throwing a festival of this sort has always been a dream of mine. Having moved to Montreal two and a half years ago, some of the first conversations I was having with people I met in the rave scene were about wanting to put something like this together. Based on zine-making events and punk shows I used to organize when I was younger, I have always wanted to expand the special feelings I have while raving to other forms of community gathering. 

When we first started thinking about this event on the 29th, we did not intend for it to be a festival. But after the tunnel rave this summer, the idea of organizing just a rave did not interest us as much. After exploring different warehouses and abandoned churches for a while, Simon and I found the first space for the fest and quickly started fantasizing about different ways we could use it. Also marking the launch of our new collective, NON/BEING, we wanted to do more than just throw a rave. I have always valued markets and group discussions for their shared abilities in bringing different people, perspectives, and experiences together - and it all just kind of came together really fast. So here we are.   

Frankie Teardrop is an event planner and DJ based out of Vancouver. In 2014, Frankie co-founded Slut Island Festival alongside Sultana Bambino. Within the same year they founded LIP, a queer events series, in which both projects are based out of Tio…

Frankie Teardrop is an event planner and DJ based out of Vancouver. In 2014, Frankie co-founded Slut Island Festival alongside Sultana Bambino. Within the same year they founded LIP, a queer events series, in which both projects are based out of Tio'tia:ke. They will be a speaker on the second panel, and a DJ during the rave segment of the festival.

AC: Who are some of the people in the panel discussions and what important topics will they be covering?

D: I am fan-boying over all of our panel speakers so hard. You can read more about each person in detail on the facebook page/fest document we sent out, but it will be an extremely interesting two hours. Drawing from knowledge bases and experiences that are involved in Montreal institutions like Mutek, Moonshine, Slut Island, Inner Circle, McGill and Concordia Universities, Lagom, Taking What We Need, (you folks at Also Cool), and so much more - a lot of really great humans are coming together to share their perspectives and ideas on community. The panels will be segmented into two one-hour conversations, with different folks for each discussion. Broadly asking ‘what is community?’, the first hour will more philosophically look at how community manifests within our lived realities, and why strengthening and expanding community support/conversation outside of rave and dance floor spaces is important. 

Comprised of generally younger members involved in more recent years of art and cultural development within Montreal, the first hour is intended to identify the tone and structure for why and how we should organize ourselves moving forward. The second discussion group will then build off of what was shared in the first hour, to more-specifically talk about the issues our communities face around spaces and funding. 

Incorporating very real dynamics of not only our community structures, but also of our personal lives - we will be graced by more experienced members of Montreal’s various scenes to talk about how we can establish sustainable spaces to work and gather within, and reflect on how we can better collect and direct funding sources within our community practices.

The self-taught, Montreal based artist Jimmy Bertrand (Neo Edo) creates through any means digital. They will be performing live at the festival.

The self-taught, Montreal based artist Jimmy Bertrand (Neo Edo) creates through any means digital. They will be performing live at the festival.

AC: For someone who's never attended a rave before, what would you say have been the greatest lessons you've learned from those experiences?

D: Wow this is a really great question. One of the things that makes raving such a profound aspect of who I am today, is how it can be an extremely personal thing, yet a broader social/community-based undertaking at the same time. Raving has opened up a whole new understanding of embodied existence to me, a relationship between self and the physical that I was never able to fully grasp before moving to Montreal. It has taught me how to be with my physical self, and has offered the resentment I had developed growing up as a trans/non-binary individual, the opportunity to heal. 

Celebration is important. Having spaces we can experiment, escape, and explore relationships with ourselves and one another are founding sentiments for my beliefs in the power of raving. For so long I felt trapped and detached from the physical aspects of my existence, but through this development across my personal journey of raving, and the community relationships I have built - raving has taught me, and continues to teach me, lessons that inform complex aspects of my personhood. 

HONOUR YOUR INSTINCTS. You know yourself best. Always check in with yourself and reach out to people around you if something feels off. Consent and mutual respect should inform every aspect of the intentions you bring into a social space, especially raving. Although raving can be a beautiful and powerful exploration of self, acknowledge and respect how your personal journey affects and impacts the other people sharing space with you. 

We all have something to gain and learn from raving, but your experiences will always be more fruitful for both yourself, and those around you, if you move through them in consideration of broader community sentiments and mindful practices. Raving is a great place to begin these journeys, but I do not think they are the last and only places these feelings, conversations, and lessons should be shared.  

 

FESTIVAL SCHEDULE

12-6pm: Meet the Community (Co-Presented by N10.as & Sweatboxx)

A daytime art market co-presented by N10.as and Sweatboxx featuring local artists and vendors. Local DJs and VJs will be performing and broadcasting live on N10.as during the market.

6-8pm: Community Panel Discussions (Co-Presented by Also Cool)

A facilitated open discussion on Montreal’s various creative scenes, and how we create, support and sustain the communities' efforts. The panel discussions will be led by community leaders and creative organizers from different academic, social, and experiential backgrounds, bringing together people and perspectives from many different parts of Montreal's cultural foundation. 

Panel One: What is community? 

With speakers Malaika Astorga, Diego Cabezas Watson, Willow Cioppa, Sophia Sahrane, and Jacqueline Beaumont, moderated by Diana Baescu.

The first hour of panel discussions will more philosophically explore what community is, and how it manifests within our lived realities. Reflecting on scene-building within Montreal in reference to broader international art networks, this hour will touch upon how we can nurture fruitful locally-based cultures, while analyzing the political implications of our social organization within the real world. 

Panel Two: Community Spaces and funding

With speakers Odile Myrtil, Danji Buck-Moore, Milo Reinhardt, Estelle Davis, and Frankie Teardrop, moderated by Diana Baescu.

The second panel will be looking at more concrete questions of community spaces and monetary accumulation/redistribution. With the quickly shifting housing market within Montreal, how can we establish sustainable spaces/studios to work out of, and how do we find new venues for rave throwing and event organization. Closely intertwined with questions of spaces, speakers shall also be touching on various resources for funding, and shall reflect on how we can fund projects, pay one another, and redistribute wealth in productive/beneficial ways. 

8pm-Midnight: Live Performances

Live hardware performances from various local electronic musicians Liar/Lier, Exe.Jocko, Neo Edo and Dregqueen.

Midnight-7am: DJs/Rave

DJs and Vjs Pulsum, Frankie Teardrop, Lis Dalton, D.Blavatsky, Art Director B2B Fresh Out, The Dryer, Anabasine B2B Dileta, Remote Access and She.Phase, Viiaan and MPM10.

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